Grief Is the Thread I Never Asked For

Grief isn’t something I “got over. ”It’s woven into me now — part of how I walk through the world, part of what makes me Sooo Human.

The Return of Loss

Just a year ago, I lost my mom. That loss changed everything — the way I see myself, my family, and even the world around me. And now, with my stepdad declining, I feel that familiar wave rising again.

The ache. The remembering. The way grief reopens wounds you thought had healed.

It’s not just one loss. It’s all of them layered together, each one stirring up what came before.

Why I Created Pillar 2: Grief & Growth

This space, Grief & Growth, exists because grief doesn’t end with the funeral. It doesn’t follow a timeline, or a neat five-step process. It’s unpredictable. It’s messy. It lingers.

Grief doesn’t always leave us broken — but it forever leaves us changed. It teaches us about love, about fragility, about what really matters. For me, it’s become a constant reminder that being human is not about perfection. It’s about carrying what we never thought we could, in the best way we know how.

Carrying Grief in Real Life

What matters most to me right now is caring for myself, my children, my stepdad, and those I love and cherish. This season is stirring up so much for all of us.

Even though I’ve been through it before and feel oddly “prepared,” nothing can truly make me ready.

The unpredictability of loss — and of my own emotions — is exhausting. Some days I feel steady. Other days I feel undone.

I don’t claim to carry grief gracefully. Most of the time, I carry it messily. But I carry it and I fee it, deeply, and oh so humanly.

You Don’t Have to Carry It Alone

If you’re carrying grief too — I see you.

Grief has a way of making us feel isolated, like no one else could possibly understand. But it’s also one of the most human experiences we share.

You don’t have to carry it alone.

This is why Pillar 2 exists: a place to hold grief and growth together. Because even in the mess, even in the pain, we can find moments of connection, love, and being sooo human.

✨ If this resonates with you, I invite you to share your story in the comments or reach out. Grief doesn’t disappear when it’s spoken — but sharing it can make the load a little lighter.